Well, I'm sorry if anyone had to read my stupid journal rants. I guess DA is full enough of that and I don't think I should contribute, because there are people with worse problems and we would do better to pay attention to them.

... ... Oh, well.

Now I'm suited to talk about it in a decent frame of mind.

It's something personal for most people, that ... ... feeling of abandonment. Gosh, I'm not saying I'm abandoned, I have friends, but it feels damn unfair sometimes. Like when schoolmates make assumptions about each other, like " this person= weirdo " and even if they don't act on it, it's stil there. Get it? Yes, it's asking for the impossible, getting people not to judge [hate the ten-second rule, by the way.] , but I feel that anyone with an ounce of intelligence should keep an open mind.

I've schooled in two countries and people's attitudes aren't much different anywhere. None of them [not many, at least] actually mean harm, they're just... ... putting self-preservation first. Yes, they obviously feel they need to enact mental barriers against weirdness, but how much of this 'weirdness' needs to be defended against?

It's also herd mentality. I hate herd mentality, it interferes with my thought process.

It's also annoying that I can only think about these subjects for so long before mentally blowing up like a fucking dynamite stick.

... ...

This isn't going anywhere, is it? Once again I have portrayed myself as whiny-lil'-emo-wi'-no-frenz-tryin'-to-sound-smartass. UGH. I could'nt care less about my reputation, I just want to make a point, if even a over-used, over-bitched one.

It's fucking miserable, is what.

... As I've stated before, I don't want my mental level to deteriorate. 'Stupid' is inaproppriate, it's too wide a definition. All I want is to be able to think for myself, and I've never truly treasured this UNTIL I found out I might lose it. So, basically, yeah, my motive is less noble than it is self-centered.

Shit. We all need to think positive.

Thank you for your support, , I really appreciate your advice. Thanks.

On a brighter note, we should all support those who would appreciate it.
... come to think of it, that's not really a very bright note...


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